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Category: Life
It's really quite simple. I've endured basic hell for the last ten months of my life. And no it's not a crutch or an excuse for my behavior. I'm not trying to use something that happened ten years ago to explain what's wrong with me now. but dammit I can have a proper year to reorganize my world. The new world with the big hole. I've neglected most everything in my life. And I apologize. But I will make it all right. Because when you care about people you work to salvage relationships. And this was all one very eloquently written blog but as per usual it got munched by the evil server demons. Now it's really simple.
New rules to live by:
1. Opinions are like assholes. You know the rest.
2. Regret what you did, not what you didn't.
3. Treasure what's truly important, fuck the rest.
Promises I make:
1. I promise never to ask for anything, that I wouldn't do for you.
2. I promise to pick up the pieces, even if I broke it.
3. I promise to listen to you. If you promise to speak.
Vows I will make:
1. I will love my friends forever. Some more than others. But everyone forever in some way. I can't turn it off. Sorry. For christ's sake, I'd help Christel if she called me right now.
2. If I do something wrong, asshole, bitchy, or just flat out mean. I apologize now. I'm sure I knew it was inappropriate, but the good possibility is that my sense of humor got out of control, again. No, it's not that I don't care. It's just me. I'm not a fundamentally very nice person. If you've known me more than a day, you know that. I have strong opinions and rarely bend.
3. I want all of my friends to love each other, but hell is still nice and toasty so I'm not holding my breath, but I will keep trying. I want it to all be good like it was for a while, and can be again if we all get over ourselves.
Nobody's perfect. I'm not and I know none of you are. We all make mistakes. Some big and some small. Mistakes are mistakes. Live, learn, forgive, and move on.
To the ten most important people in my life: My Mom, Tara, Miranda, Manda, Jessica, Vivian, Gisel, Brooke, Justin, and Lee. Some of you have already tested whether or not I will go away forever. I won't. Duh. This list won't shrink, but it will grow. It always does.
The rest of you that haven't known me very long or very well: I'll bust your ass for being stupid and then buy you a drink and laugh about it. And that's how it is, and always will be.
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